i don't ever wanna die but I'm hating how i live

that is practically how i feel. i don't want to die but right now there is no purpose in my life. I guess my purpose now is to finish school, go to college. I have dreams, wishes and hopes, but are they really worth something or anything? it seems like that is what i always come back too. self worth.

why do i feel like i have to mean something to somebody to mean something to myself?

idk i should try to change that but i don't know how. i don't know where to start.